The past....present...future

As I sit overwhelmed with God's love for me and all the wonderful things He has blessed my life with I cannot help but look back to all of the trials He has carried me through, the restoration He has brought to my life, and to so many of the lives around me. The testimony of God's love and power is all around us; its undeniable.

 I cannot help but look back and thank God for the people that were in my life for a short time as well, that have left this earth. When I look back I realize I used to WISH I could go back, and I would miss them SO much that my heart would stay still in a place of grief. But as John Foreman talks about in one of his songs, "we can't go back". And after all, why would I want to? We are meant for a world beyond the one we live in and see. So, what a milestone this is for me, that "I have my heart set on what happens next..." just as John Foreman sings about.

"And now after all my searching, my questions...I got a brand new mindset...I'm gonna call it home..."

I'm looking forward to heaven, but also realizing that I am where I belong. My heart where God resides, is home. For someone who has moved more than 18 times in her life, to say that my heart is home, here with God (wherever I may find myself) is a HUGE milestone. I have always striven for a place to call home, to REALLY call HOME -- but all this time it was like reaching for a hand full of sand; it just slips through my hand. To be AT HOME with God's love in my heart is where true peace lies. After all, a physical home is a lovely thought (and a blessing to many) -- but it's temporary. 

I am so blessed and grateful for the restoration of God. Although I have many good memories in the past, I wouldn't go back. For I am enjoying the here and now, and think the future, whatever it holds, will be pretty cool too. For God is there.